PATHETIC
i actually cried myself to sleep last night. what is wrong with me!
am i so afraid to take a chance at life that i'm actively trying to fuck things up?!
the answer is -----> yes
this is my explanation:
Will i mind if nothing happens between us?
YES I FUCKING MIND!!
But this pain i'm feeling now, will be nothing compared to the pain i'll feel when things go down the toilet!
better i flush it myself than he does the honours.