Wednesday, Oct. 20, 2010 - 9:15 a.m.
Bundle of joy?

MUSIC:~Sour Times~ Portishead

i really am feeling fucking scared right now. I think i might be pregnant. my period is supposed to be here and it's not! my breasts are full, my lower back hurts a little bit, and i'm feeling frickin' bloated but it hasn't come yet.

i don't know if i want to be pregnant, but i don't want to have an abortion.
i don't believe in it. but when it's yourself it happens to it's a totally different set of rules that apply.

Daniel is coming to see me today and we'll do a pregnancy test.

God, i'm not ready for this.....
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