REVOLVING DOOR POLICY
Last night was great with him, but i had an epiphany.
Not abt him, about some old friends of mine.
i always thought we were like the 3 musketeers or something, always close, telling each other everything, so comfortable.
but i realized they both are full of shit. we've all been friends since like we were 15 years.
but they have been in the same loop their enitre lives. i mean sometimes i have been too. but last night i just realized how much of a revolving door their lives have become and with it, our friendship.
Ter recently came out as gay and apparently that constitutes partying till u drop and making friends with the most unstable weirdest characters. Emm is always complaining how sh doesn't have a man....yet she continually wants to sample, doesn't want to commit, always wants her space and then says they dont want her!
and i am fedup of having to be the stable one they always want to lean on. and they are never there for me. if i wanna talk i have to call them. it's always abt them....well fuck that shit.
we're not little kids anymore and this friendship is coming to an end. i was thinking abt telling them that but maybe i'll just let it phase out. better idea for sure.
ANOTHER ISSUE: So my mom know me n my guy are dating. she likes him and she doesn't like him. thing is i don't care. i refuse to be cast in the role of rebellious teenager.......again. She has a problem that he isn't the same religion as our family (i exclude myself from being put under this heading) apparently anyone who isn't a WHAT-SHE -IS eats pork and other un-blessed meat , drinks alcohol and involves themself in all kinda debaucheries.what would she say if she knew her daughter was exactly like this? im betting she would be most upset. But as much as i love her. this is my life.i refuse to hand it over to anyone and let them write the script for me.
anyway i'm going to get dressed to go this RUMFEST thing with my guy so ttyl.
update tmwr or maybe later tonight if i can manage.
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