Tuesday, Nov. 30, 2010 - 11:07 p.m.
First cut

Is the past so hard to let go of that you always need to relive it, day after day in memories spoken out loud?
It makes me feel that the present is not good enough for you and that all you had to learn and everything
good that ever transpired, has happened already. That you had your fill of the good things in life already and that
now you only live to exist.
Do you really just live to exist in this moment alone? Fleeting moments of passion, short phone calls with forced i
love you's at the end, whispered moans of love during passionate, feverish embraces.
Is today ever going to be enough for you or is yesterday what you are longing for still?
I don't know.
You alway s say you don't ever want to go back, but then why do you speak of yesterday, chuckling fondly and
with warm remembrance in your voice.
You make me feel diminished. Somehow less, not enough f or you.
Like i am just here to tide you over, until the past can be regained or until something like it comes along.
Bitter hurt washes over me as you speak of "someone" and her mother,her father, her home, her everything.
You are still hers. Your past, your happy times are linked to her still and it cuts me to the bone knowing that i may
never bring you such happiness.
prev ./. next