MuSings : Sexuality
Ok.....confession time
I've never really discussed this with anyone, but sometimes i wonder about my sexuality.
I mean sometimes my heterosexuality is questionable.
Especially, when i masturbate to lesbian or homosexual porn.
The latter is only a recent thing. I was never critical of gay men, it's just that i never enjoyed watching gay porn.
But last year, curious about that aspect of sexuality, i watched a DVD abundant with men on men love, and NOW....i realize that it really turns me on watching this kinda stuff.
The thing is, i really love men. A woman has never made my heart stir. Made my loins stir yes. but not my heart.
I figure if i question my sexuality too closely I'll just go crazy.
I already straigtened out a bunch of shit in mylife and i really don't have the time, energy or mental health, to unravel this mystery too.
For now, let's just say that i love a healthy dose of heterosexual sex, lightly seasoned with a little lesbian romp, with a hint of gay fantasies on the side.
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It's a good thing i'm a writer and an even better thing that i have this diary. Where the hell else could i unburden all my crap and not freak anybody out!!