FRIENDSHIP
listening to: ~Press it up~ Sean Paul
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bzz99f_T8Rk&feature=related
so i'm trying to take it one day at a time.....if i think abt the future...even as far as next week or even Friday...i think i'll run out of my apt screaming BLOODY MURDER!!
i finished a conservation biology lab today at 5pm and i felt like pigging out on chocolate. i haven't had chocolate in like over a month....so i said "Fuck this diet shit!!"
i was just paying for some sugar powedered chocolate donuts, 2packs of raisenets (is that how ur spell it? o.O),and a pack of chocolate fudge cookies when Phaedra's ex bf called me.....he said he was coming to pick me up, where was i....so i told him.
i dunno why i said yes...after what happened last time (he tried to kiss me...i brushed it off though, no harm no foul right? :/)
but honestly maybe i said yes because i was fucking tired and the idea of walking all the way home wasn't too appealing.
we ended up at my place finishing the bottle we started drinking a while ago....we got like 2 drinks apiece.
he talked abt Phaedra and even though she's my friend...i told him some stuff that i thought he should know....maybe the alcohol made it easier for me to divulge certain things that i wouldn't if i was sober (DUH!!)
But thinking abt it now, i'm glad i told him....because no-one deserves to be jerked around like that!!
Monday apparently she saw him on campus with a girl, who was his labpartner....she cursed him out, told him that he was fucking her and walked off, only to call him back to beg for a hug!!WTF!!
i know she's my friend, but enough is enough! i am really fed up of her shit!! she's telling everyone who will listen,her business and drinking like a fish and getting drunk, staggering around and generally behaving like a stupid cunt on a regular basis now......i am really ashamed to be around her now....
i keep on wondering if i should tell her anything. but whenever i even mention anything she always brushed it away and makes up some lame ass excuse.....oh she never got to party in 5 years so she's making up for lost time!!!
BITCH....you're in med school now...wtf!! calm ur ass down and deal with ur breakup like the mature person you claim to be!!.......sigh.
Being a good friend is hard sometimes