Sunday, Feb. 07, 2010 - 1:55 a.m.
NO WAY NO HOW!!

so being back at school is harder than i thought....how did i ever find time to party and study before?!!

now all i seem to do is go to class, come back home, watch TV and study....NOTHING ELSE!!

well i did hit the beach for a little midnight rendezvouz with P.....no the sexy kinda rendezvouz just as friends.....though we did fool around with each other slightly when we were teenagers.

anyway......he picked me up from my apartment and we bought a 6-pk of corona and a bottle of white wine and headed for the beach.

we ended up finishing all the alcohol (which wasn't much to begin with) and stripping down to our underwear and jumping into the rising tide!! woohoo!!

though i had fun with P....he's def not attractive as he used to be...for one thing he's gotten fat....and all that weight's not good for attraction.
he still thinks i'm as gorgeous as ever......well thank you for that P....even though i feel like shite some days.


hmmm another strange thing....friday morning Phaedra's ex bf called me and told me he needed someone to talk to....he sounded so pathetic so sad tha i said ok.
i told phae abt it and in the afternoon we sat in his car on campus and talked..and talked...and talked......then we went for beer and talked some more....he really misses her but she won't give him a chance to show that he's changed......

he told me he hit her the night before, because she was screaming and crying and hysterical...

she told me she didn't want to talk tohim and he dragged her into his car and she was hysterical because she was scared...

now this is the same girl that she would drop K in an instant if R changed.....but she never wants to be with him cause he hits her, threatens her and raped her on multiple occasions...and oh yea she loves him to death.....

i just told her to leave me out of their love triangle.

LIFE IS SO FUCKED UP sometimes isn't

i'm not gonna let my life descend into that toilet of snakes and shit like before though....no way no how


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