Saturday 7th January, 2009 -
Ode to death
There is a maelstrom of emotions churning in me right now. Agony, hate, fear, loneliness and worst of all, insanity.
I am going crazy. My mind is drifting away from me in a haze of hate and loneliness. I wish I could get the strength to put myself out of my misery. Honestly, all day all I could think about was slicing my wrists. But I want it to be easier than that. I wish I could just fall asleep and never wake up. If I go to hell so be it, maybe I�ll be in worse agony there, but really the agony here is no picnic either.
Maybe I should just overdose on pills. maybe I should do that. Will I froth at the mouth and be a gruesome sight to whoever finds me.
Hmmmm�what do I care how I look. No one said that death was pretty.